Abstracted Mind – Jina Wallwork

It doesn’t share the appearance of my mind. I know that I understand my own thoughts, yet I’m asked to believe something different. I’m expected to repeat another’s words until they become habit. Is it enough to live life in accordance with the words that others ask you to speak? I cannot pretend. If I did, I would never fully understand my own actions, because they would be far removed from who I really am. I’ve explained my mind in complete detail, and there is little room for another to complete the picture as she chooses to see it. My mind is clear, yet I’m still being asked to think differently. I’m being asked to change for another and they can’t see the casual insult within the request. They ask my thoughts to become distorted and deformed into something completely different; to become something they believe is more appropriate, given the circumstances; to fake beliefs that would be more comfortable for those around me; and to be given another’s thoughts and then conform. I have no desire to replicate another’s mind. I enjoy hearing the thoughts of those around me, but I have my own mind, and I don’t require another.