Freedom – Jina Wallwork
I will never escape the vulnerabilities that are part of the human condition. I will journey into difficulties, and my body will explore its fragility as it greets old age. These experiences come from being human. Therefore, I don’t aim to be free of these events. I aim to be free of my own desire to control the future. I want to overcome the fears that highlight the fragility of life. I must accept my concerns and try to learn from the presence of these emotions. By accepting my own frailties, I will learn to enjoy this moment and give myself the space to appreciate all that I have to enjoy. All worries seem inferior to the joy of being alive at this moment. I don’t need freedom from my own humanity. I need to accept the experience as a whole. This moment contains greater magic because I know that it will end.
One day I will be unable to enjoy the physicality of expressing myself through this body. My health will fade, and I will understand the limitations of my own self-reliance. I will come to understand the interconnected nature of all humanity, and I will know that we all require the support of each other. I will learn that being the recipient of kindness and compassion is a basic human need. Strangely, my fears and worries increase my desire for greater freedom. I want to be free of illness and remain healthy and fit for all eternity. However, I know that I can’t escape the realities of being human. I want to run away from my own vulnerabilities. Receiving care is a valuable experience. It teaches the recipient and the provider about the value of love and the strength of the relationship. Today I am free to move; tomorrow, I am free to learn.