Freedom – Jina Wallwork
I will never escape the vulnerabilities that are part of the human condition. I will journey into difficulties and my body will explore its own fragility, as it greets old age. These experiences come from being human, therefore I don’t aim to be free of these events. I aim to be free of my own desire to control the future. I want to overcome the fears that highlight the fragility of life. I must accept my concerns and try to learn from the presence of these emotions. By accepting my own frailties, I will learn to enjoy this moment and give myself the space to appreciate all that I have to enjoy. Within this moment, all worries seem inferior to the joy of being alive. I don’t need freedom from my own humanity I need to accept the experience as a whole. This moment contains a greater magic because I know that at some point it will be lost.
One day I will be unable to enjoy the physicality of expressing myself through this body. My health will fade and I will understand the limitations of my own self reliance. I will come to understand the interconnected nature of all humanity and I will know that we all require the support of each other. I will learn that being the recipient of kindness and compassion is a basic human need. It is strange that my fears and worries increase my desire for a greater freedom. I want to be free of illness and remain healthy and fit for all eternity, but I can’t escape the realities of being human. I want to run away from my own vulnerabilities. Receiving care is a valuable experience, as it teaches the recipient and the provider about the value of love and the strength of relationships. Today I am free to move; tomorrow I am free to learn.