To See Love by Jina Wallwork

You’re free to build a future filled with love and joy. You’ve been tied to me for too long. Your desire betrays you because I know I can’t give you the things that make life such a beautiful gift. I want you to have children dance around your feet, and I want you to find a relationship where you can grow and learn from each other. I want you to share a long journey with someone who makes you smile and treats you well. You’re easy to love, and you’ll have no problem finding someone special. I can’t give you these things because my past is longer than my future.

          We all make hard choices. Following your heart doesn’t always lead you to the people you love. Sometimes, love asks you to step back and consider what’s best for the other person. I hope you hate me for all of my cruel actions because it will speed up the process. I want to crush your desire into nothing. I know it’s painful, but I can’t find another way. This is what you need because it’s vital for your future. The years will pass, and your past will become longer than your future. You will sit surrounded by grandchildren, smiling at your good fortune and pleasant memories. Perhaps, then you will think of me. The anger will have been long forgotten, and you’ll be able to wrap my cruel words in a blanket of understanding, and when you do this, you’ll be able to see the love inside them. You’ll be able to see all of the blessings you would’ve sacrificed if we had been together. There are many ways to love someone, and sometimes letting go is the most loving of actions. I can see your future, and I know it will be beautiful. One day you might realize that I helped you to create a precious future. I’m giving you the best that I have to offer. Sometimes, love is disguised as cruelty, and at other times cruelty is disguised as love. It’s not always transparent or easy to understand. You won’t always see the love that is behind an action. Your eyes will be clouded with anger and sorrow, and I will use that to guide you forward. Love will always be there for you.